6 years on wordpress.


When did this happen? Have I really been here this long? Did I seriously open this account as an 11 year old?

When I was seven, I decided I would be a writer. Ten years later, here I am. Poetry published in six places, three other books in the works, planning for college.

Did little me know this was where I was headed? Do the people around me know how much it means to be living in a dream? There are people who have followed this blog for as long as I’ve been posting. Wow!

I get people asking me why I don’t care that I’m not monetized, or why I don’t get sponsorships or reviews. I get questions about why, being so young, I waste my time writing. It’s not a waste.

I get to engage with a community of writers who care about what I have to say. It’s rare that young, LGBTQ+ women are listened to on any platform. It means so much to see responses and engagements on this website. It’s amazing.

Six years of just learning who I am. Two years of sharing what I love. Three months of being a published author. I know what I want to be when I grow up: a writer. I can’t wait to keep growing and sharing my world with you lovely people. Thanks for sticking around.

-ellynn

september astrology.


Here’s a column I wrote for a newspaper that didn’t make the cut. Decided to put it here.

Aries (MAR 21-APR 20): It’s a good time for you to get things done, as competitive Mars will remain in Virgo until October. The increased drive can lead to quick anger in Aries, so be mindful of how you express your feelings this month. Aggression is ill-advised, and it would be wise to stay out of arguments.

Taurus (APR 21-MAY 21): Not the best month for any romantic relationships — Virgo season puts a stop to that. However, your cousin Libra will soon accept your shared ruling planet, Venus; expect ease in professional and personal relationships mid-month. Remain confident in your identity. You are strong.

Gemini (MAY 22-JUN 22): Gemini, your intellectual side will come up several times this month. With brilliant and communicative Mercury in Virgo, you may notice that it’s easier to speak about your ideas. It’s time to seek the answers you need, and if you can’t find them, ask for help. Guidance will be given.

Cancer (JUN 23-JUL 23): Cancer’s energy should feel a boost around September, as the Moon is going to pass through Virgo, the sign of health and nurturing. Be wary of your aggressive tendencies toward emotions; allow yourself to spend some time committing to self-care. You’re worth it.

Leo (JUL 24-AUG 23): It’s normal after a sign has passed through their seasons to feel drained, especially after Leo’s boldness and flamboyance was so prominently highlighted in August. Some introvert time may be necessary, but the Sun still rules until September 23rd, the Equinox. Don’t let your light dim too much.

Virgo (AUG 24-SEP 23): It’s your time to shine! Your service-oriented heart and analytical brain are in full swing, so use this to your advantage. You’ll be able to help more people and be more organized this month, but don’t forget to acknowledge that you need to serve yourself as well. You deserve love.

Libra (SEP 24-OCT 23): The beginning of September may be difficult, as Venus doesn’t like to be in Virgo. However, charming Venus and amusing Mercury both enter Libra on September 14th to ease Libra’s struggling relationships. The Sun enters Libra on the Equinox for a balanced, peaceful end to the month.

Scorpio (OCT 24-NOV 22): One word comes to the surface this September: introspection. You may find yourself “in the feels,” contemplating your ambitions, passions, and new beginnings. The depth of Pluto can offer a sort of mental clarity you may have been seeking over the summer. Spend time in thought.

Sagittarius (NOV 23-DEC 21): It’s a month of optimism for Sagittarians, kicking off with Jupiter in Sagittarius squaring Venus in Virgo. All signs point to “yes,” and you’re on a roller coaster that only goes up. Dive into new friendships, schools of thought, or places to visit. The outcome might just surprise you.

Capricorn (DEC 22-JAN 20): The beginning of this month puts a damper on the emotional side of Capricorn, but don’t stress, as your knack for hard work will come to light by the second week. Motivating Saturn goes direct in Capricorn on the 18th, allowing you to reflect on the previous April retrograde.

Aquarius (JAN 21-FEB 19): Aquarius is rather quiet during this upcoming month. You may want to spend some time with the people you trust. October can bring up some unexpected anxieties, so start to prepare for the ahead stressors. We can often store up our energy for when it is needed most. You’ve got this.

Pisces (FEB 20-MAR 20): For much of this month, you might have trouble remembering who you are. Creativity can run wild, but a sense of self can disappear. Use that boost to remember your true nature and take care of yourself. It’s okay if your outer protections falter or even change. Treat yourself gently.

re-blog: stop comparing your efforts to others.


“Hello. Ima get real with you all.

Being a bullet journalist, it’s often a struggle to be confident about my own skills. There are so many people out there who can do it better, easier, prettier, faster, more elaborate… You get the point. Eventually, the insecurity I have about my art skills becomes all-encompassing, and it actually does worse than damages my motivation to make art… It deprecates my self-esteem.

Now, I see this happen all the time in my daily life. I see my whole world as how successful I can be, how impressive I can be, how ___________ I can be. Just fill in the blank. It’s so easy to slip into these modes of ultimate depression and self-hatred with any competitive activity; it doesn’t have to be art.

There’s just one thing that keeps me sane. Just one thought. You are here to create art; the art does not create you. Yes, you should never compare yourself to others in order to shame yourself. No, you shouldn’t hate yourself because you don’t think you stack up. But when all hope is lost, when you just can’t find a reason to stay positive about how your work is, just say to yourself, “I’m here to invent/create/do this thing, but this thing is not me.”

Boom, over. done with. Automatically you realize that what ever you’re able to do, it doesn’t define you as a person. You are disconnected from that thing. You can now start to fill it with things that do define you.

Are you smart? Beautiful? A good listener? Do you have a good taste in music? Whatever it is, go after it with all your heart and put that idea in place of the thing you think you’re not good at.

So on this lovely Sunday morning, I ask that you take advantage of this mini mind shift. I honestly use this daily, and if helps me. Try it throughout the week and let me know if you notice any differences!

Happy succeeding.

love,

-rachel ❤”